I stand for I~M~A~G~I~N~A~T~!~O~N

Since past two years, at least once a week, every time I step out of my advisor's office, a big framed poster of Albert Einstein greets me with a familiar yet characteristically enigmatic look, and I could not avoid reading the line where he summed up the essence of his contributions to the advancement of science. It reads-
"Imagination is more important than knowledge."
Every so often I spot incidences where imagination trumps knowledge, and I could not help but wonder why still many of us are obsessed with knowledge, which by definition has a finite (albeit huge) limit. Knowledge definitely aids in a person's imagination by boosting one's imaginative powers, yet everyone of us is moved by the imaginative element in an art form, by the imaginative aspect of an innovation, or by the imaginative prowess of a person. In this post I am trying to present few incidents, moments, and recent experiences where my adherence to the importance of imagination has become more strengthened. Picking an example closer to home, let me talk a little about some recent posts that I read in people's blogs. (My inspiration for this post actually came from those!!!)

My thought process was triggered after I read a post titled -'Fourth Wall', where the blogger very convincingly proved how some situations eludes our senses and we are unable to see every detail of the life's complexity (http://sagittalsection.blogspot.com/2009/10/fourth-wall.html). She elegantly provided an example of the studio set up from 'FRIENDS' apartment where the fourth wall was always hidden from the audience view. In the case of studio setup, camera and crew reserved the fourth wall for themselves. As soon as I read it, I thought that although the fourth wall has not been visible to the audience but that does not preclude the audience's imagination to conjure how it might have been, if they were to see it. On a similar token, I would like to think that life's complexity too is elusive as long as we do not try to compliment our knowledge with that of our imagination. We should all try to imagine this 'fourth wall' with the paint and pictures what we would like to see on there, it surely will take the shape of our imagination. I say so because I tend to believe that for all those complex situations, nothing could provide a solution, except the creativity and imagination of the person to steer clear out of such situations. The following sections are compiled to present the power of imagination and to suggest as how imagination has become the mainstay of human progress in the current world.

In another post, the author embarked on a tour of the living landscapes strewn around the (http://angikabasant.blogspot.com/2009/08/wanderlust.html) world entirely with the help of her imagination. With a 'blink', she visited various civilizations or the thriving remnants thereof. She caressed salty winds at the beautiful Caribbean beaches, smelled the damp forest air, climbed the mountains and dived in the oceans, she took note of past, expressed the present and made preparations for the future, all sitting somewhere in a small room of busy Mumbai city. Her imagination let so many other strangers (me being one) join her in the incredible journey across the globe. Her imagination instigated a sort of chain reaction in all others who imagined the places in their mind, and possibly enjoyed the visits to all those interesting places.

Yet another instant is of my own recent FB status message. It read 'Wild flowers, some rain and few familiar sounds'. I was sitting in my room and I 'imagined' about this. It was not purely imagination since I have a specific experience associated with this string of words. It represented a particular moment frozen in time, memories of which elicit a unique sensation. So this situation was not just a figment of my imagination, but I was imagining the same experience which I had once when I was surrounded by beautiful wild flowers. And the rain drops were creating a uniquely natural symphony while the earth below my feet felt real happy. I was imagining all this while I was miles away from such a setting. It was my imagination that overrode my knowledge of being stranded in steel and concrete jungle, plugged in to the internet, posting a new status message on FB. Three people from different continents immediately responded by registering their likeness to my status message, undoubtedly the mediator was their own imagination. My knowledge alone would not have been sufficient to create such a 'imaginary' setting in the minds of people across the globe.

So assuming that there are no qualms as for the importance of imagination over the knowledge, I would like to present the main issue that's itching in my mind. Over time, as a species are we- 'humans' getting more imaginative or more knowledge centric? Are we becoming more interested in seeing the fourth wall on the screen, or are we agreeable to the prospect of imagining for whatever we can? Can we enjoy the images of various places as conjured by our mind without necessarily travelling to the different parts of the world? Are we ready for the next bold step, the transformation from the information age to the imagination age? If we could do that, wouldn't it be a next step in the human evolution...where imaginative faculty of a mind could stimulate the feeling of satisfaction and eventually happiness for everyone. Lets IMAGINE that!

'Its Autumn again.... '

'Its Autumn again...,
Trees are the most beautiful with leaves red, purple and yellow,
Through the woods, over the river, cold wind blow,
Branches sway, leaves flutter and ripples dance in the water shallow,
To and forth it swings, not quite happy, but the leaf has to go,
Its Autumn again... time to go home...'

Some 5 years ago these thoughts flowed out of me when I was leaving the city of spires... Now it is autumn again, and I reflect upon the journey that leaf has undertaken since then. The places it has been to, the people it has found, the new relations it has made, the old promises it has kept, and the life it has lived. Silently contemplating about the different seasons it has seen... from shining bright sun to the partly cloudy weather, the chill of winter air and the fragrant breeze of spring. From the kiss of mountains to the hug of waves, from the tranquility of silent streams to the energy of desert storms. From witnessing the falling rain drops to watching the rising mist. From touching the feather of birds to listening the chirping of crickets. From lightening thunder to the polite rainbow... Transitions from just good to exceptionally good moments. The passage through the corridors of what happened, what could have happened and what's still to happen. Gliding on this wake of hope...it still is floating in the air...Its Autumn again but I am still not at home...

Why does the waves seek the shore?

But let there be spaces in your togetherness and let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Kahlil Gibran

I saw a movie tonight, where, for a long moment, the camera was transfixed on sea shore... and it captured the waves breaking constantly on the shore. Each wave looked similar, but one can tell none of them were identical. Each one touched the shore in its unique way and soon disappeared dissipating its energy, as if it never existed. Another wave followed suit. It was impossible to make out whether the shore was being affected by this constant arrival and disappearance of the waves. Well nothing can remain unaffected, right? Everything, living or non-living, has a tendency to react to the forces it is subjected to. Long ago, good old Newton came up with a mathematical expression explaining this phenomenon. But I am here not to talk about the physical forces that control our world but rather to express my thoughts on what philosopher Gibran in the above mentioned lines regarded as the moving sea between the shores. The forces which transcend the boundaries of physical theories and define our world. The relationships which might appear as trivial as the continuously breaking waves at a sea shore or others which sometimes become instrumental in changing the course of one's life.


I would like to extend the analogy of waves and sea-shore to human relationships, and try to see if it provides an insight to understand how and why we feel, see and experience the things, the way they appear to us, and is this the only way that it can and should happen. Or in other words, is there a possibility that sea-shore can also affect the waves?


Well, we all know that the movement of waves is a consequence of earth's motion, the wind over ocean water and the gravitational pull by moon (tidal influence). But just think for a moment, wouldn't it appear nonsensical if they were not to move towards the shore. It would be an aimless wandering and not a purposeful journey if it were not towards a specific direction. And no one can deny that the whole process seems logical since it follows the formation, movement and then end of the existence of waves when it reaches sea shore. Thermodynamically, its a mechanism of siphoning off energy from deep oceans towards the land (high to low energy system), waves just playing the role of a trusted transitory aide. The point that I wish to emphasise here is that everything, living or non-living, has an inherent unfailing relationship and inter-relationships with every other thing on the face of the earth, and possibly even beyond. It is an entirely different thing that only few things make sense to us. And for all those that does, we assert our claims exhaustively while for all others we are fearful even in acknowledging its existence. It is complex, and one may not necessarily invest all the time and energies in understanding these, but it would be worth the effort if one recognises that while the waves are shaping the shores, waves too are, may be just momentarily, affected by the shore.


Now, the interesting aspect of this argument is to analyse our own situation in the light of above mentioned analogy. When one sees him/herself what does s/he find? Whether they are like the shore, or more like the waves. What is the degree of impact they are causing in the life of others and how they themselves are being affected by the presence of others. Does the moment of impact brings about a positive change in you or does it creates unwanted noise. In actuality none of the situation is better or worse than other and at different times people may see themselves switching positions. The important point, in my view, is to recognise our identity, role and purpose for being there, and to make sure that the moment of impact, when the wave strikes the shore, instills fresh energy so that it is etched forever in the memory and is not relegated as a transient event subjected to erosion with time. Since there can be no moment for the 'shore' to lament the disappearance of the last wave because the next wave might just fulfill the void, and waves might not wait by the shore to see how they affected it, but there will always exist the unique and transitory moment of their unison, which defined their relationship. One should live to create as many of those fateful episodes, where one impacted the life of others and both lived the joyful moment of togetherness. Everything, afterall is related, and relationships never die, even if the waves dissapear or the shore erodes!!!


(Photo: A designer card with Kahlil Gibran words, (c) rkb)

Ah!!! Life is painfully beautiful...

Last week, I witnessed a charismatic moment when I saw life begetting a new life. Those quiet moments characterizing the eternal truth of the continuity of life were surrealistic. Actually, as a part of my field trip, I visited a section of sea coast known as Juno beach, where during this part of the year, Turtles come to lay eggs, their promise of the next generation. Whole summer the eggs lay buried in the sand, cemented strongly with just one belief - that new life would find its own way.

On the night when I went there, winds were blowing towards land. The waves soaring on high tide were breaking aloud on the shore, disintegrating into salt spray and making a discordant symphony. The scene was perfectly cast for something exceptional, something different from a trivial day-today happening.

And suddenly, there was this mighty Leather back turtle, caught in midst of the egg laying trance. She was huge, beyond all my imagination, and looking at her, I cannot help but to marvel at the majestic creation of nature. Someone later informed that she was laying her third clutch of eggs this season! She took almost an hour to complete this act and then another 45 minutes or so to pack the nest securely with beach sand. It was amazing how elegantly she managed to fill the nest compactly and yet so softly given her immense size. Then slowly with the repeated action of her flippers she camouflaged the location of nest so beautifully that it was difficult to recognize where her eggs lie. Once the job was done, she responded to the calling of waves by making a straight advance towards Ocean. Before plunging herself in water she paused for a moment, may be to gasp some air, or may be to reflect upon what she had been through, realising the fact that she will be embarking onto an unknown journey leaving a part of her's buried in the sand. Those were very long few seconds... She was about to leave the shore any moment now, and I knew that this would be the first and last time I was seeing her...

And then just like a dart she was in water, surf and waves embraced her with deep love and she was lost from sight in a moment. I do not know what emotions sprang up in my mind, but I felt a trickle or two of warm water on my cheek, the exuberance of those moments was simply too difficult to contain within myself.

Yeah... Life is painfully beautiful...

Images from many lives...

As if some one opened a secret window and I could peep at the kaleidoscopic beauty sprawled in front of me. While undergoing this interestingly unique experience I was surrounded by some very exotic combination of sound and music reverberating in the background. This was an uncommon opportunity provided by the film club at India Habitat Centre in form of a week long Film Festival showcasing the panorama of Indian regional culture through creative art movies.

What these ‘not so popular’ movies bring forth are some simple stories depicting the life of common men from the hinterlands of this extensive subcontinent, who possess an identity of their own. A special category ubiquitously distributed across the various sections of society, spanning through all the existing differentiations of caste or class and surpassing every geographical barrier. For whom life is a continuous struggle and every joy could thrive only in the shadow of some sorrow. Even the thought of leading ‘a beautiful life’ could suffice to make them qualify as insane. It is so ironical to realize that amidst all the promises of modernity and holistic development, struggle for a dignified life goes on incessantly. With all its paradoxical contrasts, that not so beautiful way of life still continues as the ‘tragedy of commons’…

In the backdrop of traditional culture and the rural landscape choreographed with lush green natural setting, these stories possesses an air of genuineness which makes it difficult to part away with them referring it just a work of art. For me, personally this festival holds great importance as it compliments my own understandings of this strange country which I have just begun through my own journeys across the length and breadth of this vast country. Moreover, these not so imaginary stories tells me that every life is inadvertently a story, whether one gets a chance to tell it or not, one nevertheless lives through it with its own share of struggles… Amitav Ghosh said in reference to his book The Glass Palace…'Every life leaves behind an echo that is audible to those who take the trouble to listen…' Now as I am here with all my time to listen, I hope one day there would be someone to listen to mine…


Volver: To come again

The oscar nominated movie starring beautiful, charming and sensual Penelope Cruz.

What could have been a better choice of day then the International Women's Day to watch a movie revolving around the lives of few women, 'young and old', living around the city of Madrid. The screening took place at nearby Stein Auditorium at IHC as a part of Spanish Film Festival and luckily it doesn't came heavily upon the pocket. (absolutely free...)

An oscar nominated feature film ought to have some substance but what appealed me most was the subtlety and the uniformness of the emotional thread that runs through three generation of women from an average middle class family of Spain. It showcased those not so exclusive yet special moments of joy, happiness, pain and sorrow which we all live through day-today life. The beauty in the trivialities of simple life was reflected in a fresh and candid way. Keeping it natural, director successfully carried on the task of telling what usually remains unsaid of the relationships that bring us the sense of belonging, sense of completeness, sense of family. He touched upon some notes, whose reverberations could be felt even until now.


A nice movie indeed!!!

Bees Saal Baad: A journey to the bylanes of memory

The following travellogue is an outcome of my visit to the Forests of Chattisgarh during January 2005, while working as the project maanger at IIFM. It also brought me an opportunity to visit a small town near Bilaspur, Champa where I had spent few years of my childhood some twenty years ago. Thus it signified a journey to the bylanes of my memory....

23/01/05
We three, as ITTO-IIFM project team, boarded 8254 Down Amarkantak Express on 23rd Jan’05 to visit Marwahi Forest Division in Chattisgarh (Pic. 1)[1]. In company of experienced senior personnel, Dr D. Dugaya and Dr Kiran P. Mali, I was pretty comfortable and very enthusiastic about my first trip to the real forests of India. My watch showed 1600hrs when, quite unexpectedly, breaking the tradition of Indian Railways, our train made a move from Bhopal station at the scheduled time!!! As the evening advanced with our advancing train, I had my first glimpse of dry deciduous forests of Madhya Pradesh. The journey became interesting as the train moving across the ups and downs of the forested hills provided an unprecedented view of not so dense but uniform forests. The vegetation as it appeared to me, was neither diverse nor does it appeared to be very rich, but in totality it gave an impression of a picturesque scenery, or should I say it portrayed a uniquely distinct image with all different shades ranging from green to yellow to brown except a true dark green, characteristic of evergreen rainforests (Pic. 2) and which I were due to witness in my future trips to the forests of Kerala as WWF sleuth.

(24/01/05)
We reached our station-‘Pendra Road’, very early in the morning, (around 04:30 hrs) but not without having fun filled drama during the night. It involved trans-locating a man to another compartment who was sleeping on the berth right across me. The billowing noise of his snores even challenged the roar of the moving train. As the decibel count of his snores continuously soared in synchrony with the speeding train, while we co-passengers battled hard to get some sleep amidst this duel, it provided the main impetus for this act. When finally our patience gave up, solidarity for a common cause surfaced and we found ourselves united for what appeared to be a ‘do or die’ situation. Soon our efforts bore pleasant results when we succeeded to shift him to Dr Dugaya’s compartment, for whom there was no other option but to carry the baton once it has been passed onto him. Here unfortunately it was not a baton but a tough ordeal!!! In a true Indian spirit, we then enjoyed a good sleep for the rest of the journey without being concerned for the passengers at other compartment.

On that dark chilly morning of January, we alighted train to find the station deserted, and as we ventured out onto the streets searching for accommodation, the town also presented very few signs of life. Only after getting inside the room of hotel Surabhi, which were to be our accommodation during the stay at Pendra Road, warm couch and colour television provided the initial signs of flourishing civilisation in this small town of Chattisgarh. I believe Dr Dugaya and Dr Kiran were soon making good use of the warm and comfortable bed provided in the rooms, fulfilling the remaining quota of sleep, when I left to have a stroll on the streets. I wanted to witness in person this rural town waking up to a fresh morning, the morning rays helping to regain the vigour and spirit for an eventful day, students rushing to schools, groups of people sipping tea while discussing and flipping through local news paper simultaneously. I just wanted to be a part of everything that qualified for a mundane morning for all these people present there but was not less than an adventure for me. In a way I succeeded to experience an altogether different morning from my routine at Bhopal.

Later in the day we went to divisional forest office located at Marwahi, where we had a meeting with Mr. A.K. Tewari, Divisional Forest Officer. I found him a nice and helpful person, with all the support he extended, it was impossible to think otherwise. For me this was the first opportunity to acquaint myself with the working of an important functional unit of a behemoth governmental setup established way back in 1896 by imperial rulers: the Forest Department. I was also introduced to some of the tree species and I witnessed how timber is handled in the forest depot (Pic 3). For a very peculiar and unprecedented long lasting sensation, Dr Dugaya made me to taste Kasturi Bhindi and Bhilawa when we spotted these trees while roaming in the premises of the Forest Depot.

As the day approached conclusion, we were happy that a major chunk of work was completed on the very first day, a good beginning for us. While witnessing the oblique sunrays one could not escape a peculiar feeling about the finish of a day in rural setting (of course, Indian). It is in the air, one hears the sound of birds coming back to the trees for roosting, one finds people’s faces exhibiting smiles of satisfaction and tiredness, as a farewell to a hard working day, and one smells in the air the smoke from the numerous kaccha Chulha (earthen stoves) reporting that the preparations for the supper has already begun. After experiencing all this from all the senses, bidding adieu to the sun and its golden rays remains just a formality.

On our way back to the hotel we crossed a brick kiln where clay tiles (to be used for terrace) were being prepared. This miniature unit employed only a handful of people, amongst them was a small boy barely 7-8 years of age. As I took a photograph of this working child (Pic 4) I captured in my camera a tender childhood slowly maturing and hardening along with the drying clay tablets. These tiles were cautiously shaped by his little hands with a total indifferent attitude towards shaping his own future. The tiles would probably make it to the destination they were meant for, this boy however seems to remain here. With these thoughts I witnessed another face of my India in making. This sad irony remains dissident to the claims for the nation wide opportunities for equitable development to all and brings into spotlight the inefficacy of the current economic boom to make a real difference in the life of a common Indian.

(25/01/05)
We started off early in the morning to visit the field sites in the vicinity of the town Pendra Road. We met resource persons, forest beat guards and other members of the village committees. In total we visited five villages Piparkhuti, Palbania, Kotariadand, Thengadand and Gaurkheda and the resource persons Mr. Subelal, Mr. Santosh Kumar, Mr. Phoolchand and Mr. Santosh Kumar Pav for each of these villages. During our brief meeting these resource persons handed over the data gathered from the field sites and in return collected the honorarium for their services.

The villages were quite remote, nothing more than just a cluster of few houses; none appeared to have much of an influence of the modern world. Perhaps it was the first pleasant sight to find children going to the village schools, primary level at best, in the buildings that bore all typical characteristic of a government ownership. In most cases these were just a walled enclosure containing couple of rooms with pucca (concrete) ceiling. A much disturbing fact, however, was a total absence of any medical centres, neither government nor private (at least I did not spot a single dispensary or health centre in these villages). Lack of any medical facility for all the people who obviously provide the precious votes during election blatantly speaks of the callous attitude of the politicians who could and should make a difference in the standard of life of these rural people, who are no less than any other citizen of the country. This portrays somewhat true and contrasting image of the prevailing conditions of rural population for whom various agencies’ claims to ensure improvement in the standard of living.

It was a successful day in a sense that we were able to record the data, distribute the honorarium and carry out the ecological survey of a plot (100X100 mts) in the vicinity of Gaurkheda village. We marked 5 (10X10mts) plots in the existing bigger plot and counted the species of plants/trees present in these plots. This was done in order to record the growth, regeneration and diversity of the species. The bigger permanent plot was largely a representative sample of Sal forest with other tree species such as Tendu, Char, Chilli, Kaari and Saaja. Teak was almost non-existent. Food that barely satiated the hunger marked end of the day.

(26/01/05)
It was a national holiday- India’s 57th Republic day. As the government offices were closed so we decided to have a trip to Amarkantak, the location high above in the hills from where two holy rivers descend to the plains of central India. While Narmada flows down towards west Son takes an east ward course. I was excited for few known and many unknown reasons; this was to be my very first sight of the origin of a river. I have earlier seen Narmada flowing in Gujarat where it is colossal in terms of span and volume and I was eager to see how humble its beginnings are, and making a detour during an official visit has its own excitement…!!!

The entire trip would have been a waste if it had been without those 10th century temples made up of black granite stone (Pic 6). (I am not really sure what this substance actually is but its endurance suggests that it is made up of something very sturdy). There was a Shiv temple, which, I was told, dates back to 10th century and its main Shivalingam is said to have appeared from beneath the ground. Interestingly, a thin stream of water flows continuously watering it. This creates an image very similar to the mythological belief about river Ganga flowing out of the locks of Shiva. The temple of the river Narmada exemplified yet another face of devout Indian who would invariably go to any length of propaganda or deign to perform anything in the name of the God. This blind faith reigns supreme in the heart of millions of Indians who otherwise observe a peculiarly insensitive attitude towards the fellow countrymen/women. What good is this faith if it does not engender humility? Unfortunately none of these places of worship seems to be able to provide an answer to this unpleasant truth.

On our way back, we stopped at a small retail shop selling products and the items with medicinal properties derived from the forests. I took home half a kg of honey that was guaranteed for purity. This shop portrayed a good example of the shift in the attitude of the hegemonic dominion of Forest Department. It represented the implementation of new ‘benefit sharing’ policies of the department. It can not be stated with confidence as how far these attempts have been successful in changing Forest Department’s image of an overtly exploitative institution functioning for its own commercial benefits but a change in ideology was clearly evident. The narrative behind these new policies and initiatives was to ensure long term sustainability of the forest resources and towards capacity building of the villagers by checking illicit felling of the trees and unwarranted collection of forest produce. However, it must be noted that the department staff do not have any incentive in return of the extra duties and responsibilities that every new policy and scheme brings to them. So there is this bit of discordance still looming there, but expecting a truly perfect situation also is a way too ambitious an idea.

While returning from the village ‘Kevanchi’ we halted for a while to get some information from Mr Patnaik, another of Forest Department’s staff. He was a helpful and nice fellow. There I spotted village youth and younger kids playing some kind of game that we used to play with marbles. Interestingly here the marbles have been replaced by coins. The growing inclination towards money and desire to earn a quick buck with little effort has apparently transcended all the frontiers and even percolated deep into the rural hinterlands of the country. It also suggested the dying spirit of the sport and the sad reality as how the fun and adventure element has been so efficiently thwarted by the argument of currency in this fast changing economic world. This view was however refuted by the younger still who find adventure in their own wooden cart (Pic 7).

From Kevanchi we rushed back to Pendra Road and had the most awful dinner of the trip before letting the sleep sink deep within us.

(27/01/05)
We left for the villages towards the left side of highway, Gaurkheda and Thengadand, to meet Mr Santosh and complete the previous day’s work. After meeting him we went to Gaurkheda to fix up a new resource person so as to ensure regular collection of the data/ ecological monitoring of the random plot inside the forest.

Our entry into the village was very atypical. A fully blossomed and fruited Tamarind tree greeted us. With its ripe pods waiting to be devoured it grabbed all my attention instantly. This sight tripped all my salivary glands and I felt a flooding sensation in my mouth. Without much ado I found myself busy treating my taste buds with farm or rather forest fresh Imli. It was indeed the much enjoyed sequel to my earlier explorations of Karkara, Bhilawa, Kasturi Bhindi and alikes during this trip. The treat of Imli was enjoyed by all except Dr Dugaya, for whom his ‘pudiyas’ (small sachet containing a mix of grinded areca nuts, catechu and tobacco) still held much attraction. After finishing this uncommon and welcoming treat we made a move towards the identification and surveying of newly identified forest plot in Gaurkheda (Pic 8).

There I was more involved in spotting some other signs of life apart from the vegetation. I took several photographs of Grass hoppers and other insects, which, not to my surprise, I found in plenty (Pic 9). I tried to shoot a chameleon (Garden Lizard) but that was too quick to let me have it captured as a photograph. I feel these creatures were more surprised to find us there and were observing a state of induced alertness to respond to any of our (my) advances to their territory. The other people present there greatly enjoyed my pausing for short intervals photographing tiny creatures for which they had always been so indifferent. I wasn’t unaware of this and thought it might provide them some sort of entertainment in this otherwise a useless exercise for them.

We came back a little early, myself losing all of my interest into the last bits of the day’s visit when we went to DFO’s office to collect some data form office records. As my head was reeling with pain it was hard for me to concentrate on what is going on around. I was actually minimally interested in it, particularly after 3-4 days of seemingly monotonous and not very enriching experience as a whole. At that moment Dr. Dugaya’s proposal to visit Indira Udyaan (garden), 8 km away from Pendra Road has been accepted almost unanimously because we had nothing much to do and there was some diesel remaining in the vehicle which we saw no point in leaving it to the owner. Visit to Indira Udyaan turned out to be a painful experience in itself. The condition of few captive wild animals there instilled deep pity and sorrow. The enclosure for ‘Bear’ was so small that it could not even complete a full turn. It was very silent, as if accepted its misfortune and understood that this is not the free territory of forests where it once roamed and made itself heard to the wild. I came to know that there were actually two bears of which one died earlier. This surely seems to be on the same way, very silently though. Such a pitiful condition!

A pair of Rhesus Monkey were locked in the adjacent cubical. They were grossly malnourished pointing towards the poor state of affairs at the garden but I could not possibly see a point keeping them there. In absence of any check on the visitors, they were making fun of these creatures, sometimes shouting at them or pulling fingers or even worse by offering items such as chewing gum etc. The case of a solitary male Chital and male Sambhar too was depressing. To my untrained eye the duo appeared to be achieving their sexual maturity soon but no human present there seems to be bothered about it. These creatures don’t have much choice but to stare blankly into the future with a bleak possibility to be free in a jungle and grow into a family. So the trip, as I would record here, formed a part of this tour which I would not remember as relaxing and memorable. It should be noted as a frustrating visit to these trapped creatures whose pain was too great to be mentioned. Returning from the Indira Udyaan I started to compile this brief note of my trip and also decided to get some rest as the headache was growing. After having a good tasteful dinner, the headache disappeared and I was left to plan and prepare for my Champa visit scheduled for the next day. The following thoughts encumbered my preparations for the coming true of such a long cherished wish of mine—to visit the place where beautiful formative years of my childhood had been spent. I don’t know what this Champa trip has in store for me, yet I wish to revive and restore all my past memories which nonetheless are too faint in my mind but deny to go forever. I do sometimes fear ruining these beautiful fading images of the past in my effort to paint afresh those memories? Would it lose its beauty or will it become more beautiful, lively and enriched. Time will only tell the outcome of this trip which has come to my way so abruptly.

(28/01/05)
Champa. Finally the day so long cherished for arrived. There is this peculiar tendency in me to retrace the path that I have once travelled, revisiting the places where I once have been and refreshing the memories that have become a part of me. Following this doctrine, almost after 20 years I am again in this small town in the southern part of this newly formed state of Chattisgarh in the central India. In the past it was a part of Madhya Pradesh, thus in a sense visiting ‘Champa’ in Chattisgarh was something I actually did for the first time in my life!!!

I have long waited for this moment, when I will get a chance to come back to this place. I wanted to see as how far does the image of the town as preserved in my memory corroborates to the city in the present times. I reached Champa station very early in the morning, when it was still dark and the sky was overburdened with the clouds. It had already been raining since whole night and I was repeatedly cursing the bad choice of this particular day as the rest all of the week was bright sun shine.

I began my day by walking down up to my first school, ‘The Lion’s English Medium School’. There I met the principal of the school, Mr. K M Girdhar, who greeted me warm heartedly and appreciated the fact that I remembered old school and teachers and thought of visiting after such a long time. I too felt glad to be there again. I could recognise that the main hall and the classes were the same, even the wooden partitions that used to divide big hall into many small class rooms were also lying in the corner. I could sense a surge in my emotions. I could feel all those images of the past getting vibrant, alive once again.

Unfortunately though all trees have now gone from what used to be our tree dominated playing field. The lone structure at one corner of the playing field that used to be our favourite activity centre has given space for new school building. But amidst these changes, I was extremely delighted to find two of the teachers whom I really wanted to meet, Mrs U Bajpai and Mrs Sahai. Both served as my class teachers during the two years of schooling that I completed from this school. Isn’t it strange that only two teachers have continued here since past 20 years, as if waiting for me to come and meet them some odd day twenty years later (too much of imagination there!). Later when the principal convened a quick meeting for all the staff and I was provided an opportunity to share my thoughts, I could barely speak …rolling tears explained much more than probably my words could have.

My next destination was the house where we used to live while my father was posted in the Madhya Bharat Paper Mills Ltd. This was a rented accommodation, where we used to live on the terrace while the landlord occupied the ground floor. (Pic.10). It was indeed a great surprise for the landlord’s son and his family when I suddenly turned up from nowhere and introduced myself. Although they did not live in the house when we were there but I was received with great warmth amidst the bouts of overwhelming moments of emotion and surprise.

Things had changed in the market and in the neighbourhood and I think the globalising market forces can be held attributable for this. Although these changes were not so conspicuous but the place did not give the same feeling as I was expecting according to the past impressions etched in my mind. So in a way I was disappointed as it did not quite satisfied my idea of revisiting my own past. I find ‘my past’ has been tampered and modified. However, it was a new experience altogether, while I was longing for an opportunity to relish the fragrance of the past images in the same array afresh.

I still carry the pleasant memories of the time that I spent during our stay at champa at the bank of river Hansdev that flows by very close to our old house. I rushed to those old banks after spending an hour or so in the house. The visit to the river too disappointed me, with very little water flow and almost deserted waterfront, I could not relate it to the past when her banks were full of people. It was strange to find how drastically this river has lost importance and significance in the life of the people, for whom earlier it was a centre of so many activities. Such denigration for a still alive river appears unreasonable and hard to believe particularly since these towns are somewhat sheltered from the avalanche of traditional practices and cultural beliefs that has claimed the country’s fast developing urban centres. Before the rains could further dampen my thoughts, I quickly retraced my footsteps to return back to the house to have fulsome meal with the landlord family. During the lunch we abridged ourselves with the major events of each other’s family during the past 20 years since I left Champa. It was sort of a recap in a very fast track, 20 years squeezed in almost 20 minutes, but it was interesting. After lunch I went to have a small walk to the market and unsuccessfully tried to figure out if I could remember the buildings or places, all have been modified, renovated or constructed a new. Intermittent rain too spoiled much possibility to venture out for long. I went up to the bridge over the river and spent some time there before deciding to return to the house again, to finally say good bye to them, to the house that still holds some of the most beautiful and unforgettable moments of my childhood. I don’t know whether I would go there again, probably not, even if given a chance, I would prefer not to. Once refreshed, the good old childhood memories now could very well thrive within me and any further attempt to corroborate those fine experiences would simply ruin them altogether. And so I made a move. Interestingly, in morning I was greeted in the town with the exuberance of clouds, while on my departure, I was given a farewell with the wet eyes of these people for whom I was a stranger some few hours ago.

I boarded a local train to the district town of Bilaspur, where I moved to the Amarkantak Express. The other two members of the ITTO-IIFM team joined in at Pendra Road Station. The journey back to Bhopal was nothing but the very usual. I was nevertheless contended to the core, for having been able to venture out in the woods of central India and for being able to manage a trip to Champa as a bonus!!!

But before I bring this chapter to a close, I would like to mention something very special about the aangan (courtyard) of this house at champa (Pic. 10). It is here that I was first introduced to one of the flowering vines found in India, Madhu Malati, so it is called in Hindi (Pic11). It can probably qualify as the childhood imprinting that its flowers and the fragrance hold such an important position in my life. Even now it is so ubiquitous that I keep on stumbling upon its presence during my stays at different places across the country. Therefore I could not help but to designate this vine as one fixture in my life which has always shared my moments. Because of its presence at various places it has always been a witness to the events of my life. And hence, always during the offset of autumn when the night starts getting cooler, the fragrance of its loneliness gets carried in thin air to unite with my senses, rejuvenating me, reminding me of the moments of pleasant past, telling me of her absent presence everywhere…



[1] The pictures have been deliberately modified using Adobe photoshop tools for having these special effects.